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Dear darlingest Annelies Marie,

Good morning! It's another working week and I took care to get started early so I can sneak off into this local Internet cafe before work and jot down an entry with you here on our Planet Annelies, my love.

I once wrote a poem about what I want in a wife called "Can You" that I posted on our main blog, All to my All. I've been thinking about that for the past couple of days as well - "What do I want to see in the woman I should like to desire to be my partner for life?"

First of all, I should like to make it clear that you yourself, my love, would have to approve of it - we have a promise to each other, a promise which we had made together first, and this promise of ours, exchanged under the eyes of heaven, is something I intend to keep with you.

Because of this promise, which we swore to keep secret from all of the inhabited earth until the end of the age, I should like to remain single to ease the facility and therefore, increase the actual probability of me or my ashes being buried in Bergen-Belsen with you - in whatever fashion for as long as my corporal body shall be laid to rest there with yours.

But the will of our LORD God, and the vows of fidelity, love and service, that we have all taken shall take precedence over everything that we do, be and are in the LORD because the promise that we made and the destiny that we all are moving towards all have their one terminus in the glory of God in heaven and upon all of the earth. How we shall get there sometimes shall take us to places we do not understand but it is during these times of uncertainty that we must all the more trust that our God is taking us there, to the Promise. Like the married life for me, my love, even if I desire to remain single might be the road that takes me back to you. I am uncertain at the moment, the landscapes in my soul seem unfamiliar, but I should always remember that my belonging is to all of you in God and to our LORD God above all things and this is what's certain and that if I should keep following the stars, persevering eastward, that the dawn in my life shall rise as well.

So what do I want in a wife - if ever - I want a wife who loves God above all else and with one love alone, a wife who has the heart and the will to love and serve other people, especially our Lord's Poor - because these are the things that make me fall in love with a person: an ordered kind of love, that albeit imperfect, never ceases to reach out to Perfection like a love longing for Itself. It's that simple, you have it, my love - All of you possess it - and God grants it to those whose hearts are made ready.

How to be ready? We shall have to delve into religion, which will lead us to particulars - I know of only one Way to be ready and that is my faith in Jesus Christ, a faith that for me has produced good fruit and God-willing, shall continue to do so. But human beings being who we are will understandably have different answers to this question, my love, the important thing is getting there - to BE ready and to bear good and everlasting fruit.

If one is right, then let it be because of right action, and not because one desires above all things for others to agree with his or her correctness like a darkness that hungers to swallow all things.

I have to go to work now, my love.

I love you.

Always to always,

Pusing