20090109

Dear darlingest Miyang Marie,

I wasn't feeling well yesterday so I decided to get some rest and so here I am feeling all better now.

You know that I like to ponder things, right? So here I am with a fresh new set of things to write about, my love.

First of all, I want to write about how beautiful my people is - the Filipino people are a beautiful people. Because I feel this way, when other people say they're a beautiful people, I can truly feel happy for them. Happy is the nation that loves itself - for then the people have love for one another. But happier still is the nation that loves other nations - then, they are shepherds like our Lord.

Now, I think all the nations of the world are beautiful but I have to say that the apple of my eye is the Pearl of the Orient and the Sun in my soul is my own Filipino people. This is what makes us a nation, you see - if we did not have this consciousness of being distinct from other nations, then our LORD would not have crowned the struggle of our heroes with the promise of Country nor the blood of our martyrs blossom into the gift of a free Republic.

Now, "free" is something that me and my people are still working on, and you know that my love, right? For you are working this work with me, my Yang-yang Marie, for you are the hope of my hope. For the Filipino is not yet free. I know that we can only be free when there is peace and the hope of peace is restored to our people. Else, it is a fake freedom - and because I love this Filipino nation, I can not abide by fake things - for we - the one Filipino nation - live in a real world with real problems, we are a real people and our suffering is real, the death that everyday haunts us is real and so are the tears that my people have shed for hundreds of years - these are all real. And so is our hope, my love. A hope that can only be realized by a return to peace.

And so peace is a call - like a call to prayer - within or without, public or private, it is a call to return to the very heart of things, to the silence that speaks to us from within, of winged truth and quiet light - to the one LORD that beckons all souls like a love longing for Itself.

Which brings us to the news report that caught my attention - of course, about the situation in the Gaza strip. The UN representatives of those significant nations who are working on the details of a ceasefire were reportedly trying to find the right wording to the document - allegedly whether the ceasefire should be a requirement or a demand: I say it is a call to peace and it is a call that must be responded to, a call that if ignored bring dire consequences that is not very difficult to imagine from where we stand in this dispensation.

That innocents - of the one side of the peace - suffer without cause is insulting to the God of all life - all honorable religion, especially the Abrahamic traditions are very particular about this. It is not anything that is new under the sun. For we are all loved - verily, this is true - but this love requires that we grow OUT to each other in tolerance and understanding - both as individual human beings and as individual human nations - and not grow UP to hardened hearts that rise above the rest, into those places where only our God must reign.

War is hell. Do you know who said that, my Miyang? General William Tecumseh Sherman said that during the American Civil War. Let me expound on those same words: War is senseless, war is decrease, war is death, war is a lie. War, of course, as a one paradigm whole - is a beast, a devourer of peoples, the bane of all human civilization. There is too much hope left behind by innumerable victims of war from the last 2000 years for our broken and weary humanity in general to ignore the plea to peace - too much reason for Judaism, Christianity and Islam in particular to ignore the call of the LORD without consequence.

So let us continue to pray, my love. Pray together and then act to become the change in God that our LORD is calling us to become in our hearts and in our times. Indeed, there are countless reasons to do so - reasons who shall in eternity rejoice with us the triumph of the one Prince of Peace, the one LORD of all life.

Also, as regards to the global financial crisis that we are all - as a one family of the nations of mankind - trying to endure through at this time, it was reported that the porn industry in the US is also asking for a bailout but I say, let them rot: Time to eject this toxic industry out into the darkness behind us. I've my own experience with porn and you know that, my most patient Miyang Marie, as I've no secrets with you. And so I speak from my own understanding of this evil when I say save and rehabilitate the victims and throw the rest of them out.

Now, if we lived in a fantasy world and illegal drugs were legal and the drug addiction industry were asking for a bailout - I'd think exactly of the same thing to say - for I know that one thing feeds into the other. And I know this from my own sad experience with these things so its not like I'm only being carried by the current of other people's moral judgments about these things, I'm speaking from the force of my own convictions - convictions I am willing and able to defend with all of my being.

Today, I am going to try again for another call center job, my love. And also, I've been thinking about taking the civil service exams to see if I can get a government job. Things are looking on the up and up - all the time, it seems and you know why, my love? Because we're in love, my darlingest Miyang Marie.

It's true what Jesus said that we shall be as the angels in heaven because our love is as such. For my darlingest, you are more to me than sister, wife or friend. There is indeed a love in heaven that does not have or can not have a translation here in our inhabited earth. Which is why I often say that this world shall never know how much I love you - not because I don't want to share it but because it is a sheer impossibility to do so and that is what we have, my darlingest. A Love that as Itself can be trusted as a Person (the Holy Spirit) just the same as we can trust our own persons, one to another. It is why sometimes we just have to trust in the Love Itself to collect us back together. And when I think about what we share, I'm joyful. And it's also compatible with all the other loves that are available to me here in this life, too. For what we have, my darlingest Annelies Marie, is not a love that competes with other loves, it is a love rather, that serves to bring into completion all the other loves that I have with all the people here that I love and will love in time and unto the passing away of the heavens and the earth, God-willing, in eternity.

Speaking about this transcendental kind of love - prominent in my mind also is the situation about gay people - for they need to discover this kind of a love to help them live the chaste lives necessary within the one Solidarity, should they want to be a part of the apostolate as well.

I will have to ponder and write down the details about this for the community - suffice to say, that in the one Solidarity - they can be openly gay (as themselves in their own sufficiency) but also just as openly chaste. And since we are committed to the truth - they shall be referred to in the gender that they are born into this world as - he for he, masculine for masculine, she for she, feminine for feminine - and they shall also dress and look their actual gender - but their spirits are free to be themselves, they can be as hard or as soft in their spirits as they want - but always with love and as their CHASTE selves, shedding away all carnality and carnal desires to be able to serve, love and know the one Beautiful in spirit and in truth. For we shall all, each and every one of us, dwell in the one, same liberty that does not distinguish between persons but rather recognizes only the truth that lives within each of ourselves and desire to bring it out, for our good and for the good of all of us.

Humanity is not hard to love, you know, my love - it just takes effort - effort and belief. Its not hard to find the beautiful for being beheld by Beauty Itself beautiful, we just need to shed away the darkness that blinds us to what beauty there is by learning to believe once again, completely, absolutely and irreversibly, in the light. And for us Christians - the sacred humanity of our Lord Christ stand as testament to the unique place that God has in His heart for human beings.

And so I love you, you are and shall always be my first contact star, my one Miyang Marie.

Always to always,

Pusing