Dear darling Annelies Marie,
Rehab in a Rehab
I had to let some healing happen in my life, my love. So I went to rehab last November 11. It's no secret here that I have a drug problem. It's also no secret that I've been battling to break free of my addiction for so many years, my darlingest. That's the central reason God gave me you, my Anne, to help me break away from the sins of my past life; that the love He has placed in my heart for the right things may prevail; that I too may have a choice in this midnight darkness, my love - right here, right now - at the rising of every moment in time, my Anne, with you. And so I was away for some months. It was a difficult but necessary process and one that I shall also share in another blog to help spread the message of recovery.
I am now on my trial re-entry phase and have been reviewing some things over, my love. I've no less enthusiasm about our hopes than when I left for rehab last year, my darlingest. But now I've also realized I've a clearer view on things and so over the next few months, I most probably will be reviewing more and more of the material I have put down here with you, my loveliest.
I've also been keeping a hand-written journal at the rehab center since Day 1 where I've been able to put down most of the goings on in my heart of hearts with you, my purrrecious purrrincess, which I shall also try to consolidate with all our other material to more or less paint a clearer picture of the things we ought to be more aware about, my love, about our hopes - hopes that we both share together with all those of us who sincerely desire a better world for all nations in this new age - the numberless stars of our Father Abraham.
"...from star to star, one whole sky."
I love my Miyang. PERIOD.
From always to always,
=^.^=
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
20100528
Dear darlingest Annelies Marie,
Holy Hope
Can true friendships be undone, my love? You are a star of my inward sky, my darlingest! The first one to appear over the one firmament of my heart, by and through the grace of our LORD God, to lead me out of the midnight of my life.
Can true friendships be undone, my love? You were there with me within the prison of myself, my loveliest Miyang, and you stayed to make of me, by thy own cheer and through thy own quiet inspiration, a better person. By the sheer wonder of you, my love, you bear me up in constant gratitude to our LORD God!
You stayed, my darlingest, to make sure I should become more certain in my own being human, more capable of being happy and braver in my own ability to love and to be vulnerable for love's own right causes.
By our friendship, my darlingest, you helped rekindle my own hopes in time that I may become enabled, by grace of our LORD God, to dream again in and amidst this exile darkness, this new dreaming of one peace with you, my love, and to be as one sky with the numberless stars.
Can true friendships be undone, my love? Can a man reach out to the stars in the night sky and decide to blot it out without freedom, without the aid of heaven and will of our LORD God?
Long shall I be gone, my darlingest, a million years to pass or more, even as all things to be lost are lost forever in the twinkling tides of this great sea of time, and yet - despite all that is wrong in and about myself, and in spite of all of the evil in evil things - these are the things I know for certain must endure, my dear, darlingest Annelies Marie Hollander Frank.
Lest all remembrances be lost and the golden wisdom of the LORD fail.
Never!
Blue skies shall dawn perennial over our nations ascended in and within the golden presence of the LORD, our God, in eternity, when heaven and earth are one once again and all things in the all of creation are restored to their natural abundances, when the purpose of all of the ages of our native Mankind have come to bear its rightful fruits for God and yet, even then, I know for certain that these are the things that shall remain forever to prevail over the washing away of the darkness of exile time.
For there are no false friendships, my darlingest. As gold always must remain golden, its nobility invested in its being forever true to its timeless form, being through time and adversity made as certain as certain can ever be, friendships either exist or it does not exist.
I love you, my Miyang, so very much.
I am so much the better for having you in my little life, my Anne - how can this friendship not be right?
You are my friend forever.
I love my Miyang. PERIOD.
From always to always,
=^.^=
Holy Hope
Can true friendships be undone, my love? You are a star of my inward sky, my darlingest! The first one to appear over the one firmament of my heart, by and through the grace of our LORD God, to lead me out of the midnight of my life.
Can true friendships be undone, my love? You were there with me within the prison of myself, my loveliest Miyang, and you stayed to make of me, by thy own cheer and through thy own quiet inspiration, a better person. By the sheer wonder of you, my love, you bear me up in constant gratitude to our LORD God!
You stayed, my darlingest, to make sure I should become more certain in my own being human, more capable of being happy and braver in my own ability to love and to be vulnerable for love's own right causes.
By our friendship, my darlingest, you helped rekindle my own hopes in time that I may become enabled, by grace of our LORD God, to dream again in and amidst this exile darkness, this new dreaming of one peace with you, my love, and to be as one sky with the numberless stars.
Can true friendships be undone, my love? Can a man reach out to the stars in the night sky and decide to blot it out without freedom, without the aid of heaven and will of our LORD God?
Long shall I be gone, my darlingest, a million years to pass or more, even as all things to be lost are lost forever in the twinkling tides of this great sea of time, and yet - despite all that is wrong in and about myself, and in spite of all of the evil in evil things - these are the things I know for certain must endure, my dear, darlingest Annelies Marie Hollander Frank.
Lest all remembrances be lost and the golden wisdom of the LORD fail.
Never!
Blue skies shall dawn perennial over our nations ascended in and within the golden presence of the LORD, our God, in eternity, when heaven and earth are one once again and all things in the all of creation are restored to their natural abundances, when the purpose of all of the ages of our native Mankind have come to bear its rightful fruits for God and yet, even then, I know for certain that these are the things that shall remain forever to prevail over the washing away of the darkness of exile time.
For there are no false friendships, my darlingest. As gold always must remain golden, its nobility invested in its being forever true to its timeless form, being through time and adversity made as certain as certain can ever be, friendships either exist or it does not exist.
I love you, my Miyang, so very much.
I am so much the better for having you in my little life, my Anne - how can this friendship not be right?
You are my friend forever.
I love my Miyang. PERIOD.
From always to always,
=^.^=
Monday, May 17, 2010
20100517
Dear darlingest Annelies Marie,
Unrequited Love
You know what they say about unrequited love, my darling purrrincess. Unrequited love is love that is not reciprocated. Well, that's not what we have between us, my love -
I love my Miyang. PERIOD.
From always to always,
=^.^=
Unrequited Love
You know what they say about unrequited love, my darling purrrincess. Unrequited love is love that is not reciprocated. Well, that's not what we have between us, my love -
I love my Miyang. PERIOD.
From always to always,
=^.^=
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