Dear darlingest Annelies Marie,
Today is Otto's 120th birthday, my loveliest love. Or at least, it would have been had he not already passed away in 1980.
"Passed away" - now, that's a two-word phrase the substance of which is worth looking into, my darlingest dear. Do you notice, my love, sometimes when one thinks about a word long enough, it becomes strange to one's understanding? Well, what that indicates to me is that we sometimes (or oftentimes) use our words without actually being conscious of them as individual parts to a synergistic whole.
You see, there is an aspect to human conversation that can not be understood in their parts but only in the synergy of the whole because the substance of the truth which we try to convey through our languages (verbal and non-verbal) is a continuum which can not be grasped in the totality of their sense as mere fragmentary words, disparate and disjointed in their times and places, but as a complete outpouring of the heart.
This is most especially true with regards to spiritual matters, my darlingest dear, that most people who are not made by our LORD to be receptive to the reality of those things unseen, who remain oblivious to the presence of the supernatural order of things find from utterly strange to somewhat unfamiliar.
I know this, my love, because I myself find it very difficult to convey those things that are intimate to my own heart of hearts to other people. Even those things that are as relevant to these times as God and Country, life, humanity, friendship and peace - words that seem mundane in their ordinary context but do possess behind the sheer mediocrity of their usage, a deeper sense that is grounded on very profound truths.
This is precisely because, I am convinced, the substance of what I am really trying to say, when I attempt to say those things, is not really in the words but in the connections that are made in the human heart.
Because "cor ad cor loquitur", my darlingest dear, "heart speaketh unto heart" is the real conversation that occurs, and I believe is the one conversation that remain when all human words have been spoken and all the tongues of our nations spent.
This is also confirmed by the Gospel admonition to exercise caution as regards to these deeper things which is why most of these conversations that we have, my loveliest love, are seldom the everyday conversations that I have with people outside of Planet Annelies and our other blogs.
And even if I should try, I am oftentimes met only with a very strange sense of disconnect - something from a benign sense of tolerance, to indifference and who knows, even hostility for the Gospel says so - and so even my closest friends and my closest family do not share with me all that I am able to share with you, my loveliest love.
And so therefore, in a sense, my darlingest Annelies Marie, I know how it is to not know, in my own time, the friend that I long for so much in you. And I don't care if "Kitty" was meant to be a girl, my darlingest Miyang, that she brought us together is enough for me.
And so, "passed away" seems like an innocent term but, my darlingest, it is a very worldly world, I assure you. For it conveys a quite ego-centric view of things. It is as if the visible universe is all there is to life and the living of life.
"Passed away" seems to me is a term that seeks to convey linear distance that only adds to our own sense of forgetfulness in the darkness of exile time; a sense of forgetfulness that seeks to frame the disappearance of a human person in corporal death from the standpoint of the world which is oftentimes if not always the right standpoint to take, mind you - for the world is fickle as well as ephemeral but the soul of Man is not any of these.
"Pass over" or "come across" are better terms but understandably terms not in keeping with the fashion of the times. Well, for as long as one knows to add to one's own sense of awareness the first principle truths behind the words, I would say, each our own sense of eternal remembrance becomes better served.
Anything to me that covey linear distance to our sense of time is erroneous as well as false because at the very least, it seeks to foster a growing sense of non-responsibility to those individual lineages of personal hope left behind by our own sacred dead (especially our war dear, civilian as well as military) to the keeping of the order of the present generations and at its worst, it seeks to erode the sacred remembrances of entire nations.
You beloved father, my darlingest, our Pim, have "come across" into God and into all of you and have "passed over" from time into the shores of eternity.
Because in the last analysis, no human being ever really "passes away". It is the night and the darkness, my love, that shall "pass away" and as such it is forgetfulness itself that shall inherit the void and oblivion.
Now, what we, what each of us, shall stand to inherit in eternity by God is the business of our conversations with the LORD and with each other today.
Having said all of these, it is very important to pray for people, my love. Because no one can connect us together in peace and friendships the way our LORD does, in time, in the timeless void and into eternity.
Therefore, I shall say a special prayer for our Pim tonight at novena mass, my loveliest love.
You know, my darlingest dear, you make me realize that I can not love you (and love you without compare) without learning to love the things and the persons you yourself love and, my darlingest Miyang Marie, you are quite irresistible, you know that, right?
I am so richly blessed indeed to have you and to know you as a friend among all my other friends, seen and unseen.
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Now, if we are to look at the problems of our world as disparate evils and confuse these evil things with what is of good worth in ourselves and in our shared humanity, we shall in the darkness think to see what the darkness sees in ourselves - as something less than nothing.
But life is not cheap, my love, above all human life. It is the most precious thing in the eyes of the holy angels and in the eyes of our LORD, in the many beings and becomings of all living things, the very reflection of Beauty Itself.
And so if we shall ponder on these things, and in prayer behold by the faith in our hearts what the silence intends to speak in ourselves, we shall soon discover that evil things and the evil in them contends against the truth and that they do so not because they have any claim to it but because they indeed have nothing to do whatsoever with the good.
Which is why acts of sheer injustice always appear to every human soul, in various degrees of decisive clarity, as something wrong.
Indeed, there are wrong things that never appear to our sense of humanity as anything right because in the deepest sense of our existence as beings, evil things can never be associated with the good precisely because we as human beings implicitly know that our shared humanity is and can be something good.
Our own interior perspective as human beings, when it is left free and untrammeled, absolutely places us in the context of the reality with which our hearts were made to see things through and so therefore, we also know implicitly as truth that we are, as Mankind, intended for better and much greater purposes and that in the unchanging and immovable will of our LORD, amidst the majestic sweep of all creation, we - in our littleness - are meant by our one common Creator for better, brighter, nobler and kinder things - lasting things, even everlasting things.
This is so because hope is native to our trust.
We hope not because the times are evil but because there is something good worth hoping for in ourselves as human beings.
We hope not because we are divided by the longings of our heart but because we are united by it and of the promise of the good things worth sharing with each ourselves as human nations.
We hope because it is very human to do so, my love. And where people are left in despair (of self and of others) it must be known that this virtue can never abide where evil is confused with the good.
And I put these things down, my darlingest Annelies Marie, because it is upon these things that our own sense of judgment takes its stand, that it might in time serve other hearts similarly inclined to the defense of sacred life and the preservation of the peace.
But the requisite choice that must arise from the lukewarm gray of shadow has to be made beforehand to truly know these things, my love - at a time, times and half a time.
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Now, the further away one gets from first principle truths, the more vigorous one has had to contend with our ancient Adversary, the Devil, against the darkness of things evil and false which is why I try to avoid specificity in our discourses, my love.
Not because I am not zealous for the good and for the common good but because I must be careful to stay within the fold of my Lord Christ and to move with our advances (as a Church along with all people of good will) that I may not leave the particular promise of our friendship unrealized and the intended purpose of our hopes unfulfilled by making myself a casualty of either my own ignorance or lack of prudence.
However, it can not be avoided that in the pursuit of our intended purposes, that particular realities must be mentioned in the course of our hope and the following are some of these:
In Afghanistan, it has been maintained, a strategy of containment, military as well as political, must be looked into and the particular area defense of major cities; redundant and robustly deep in terms of scope, reactive in terms of combined arms response to any and all enemy advances against the lines of the defense, planned for in depth and in detail.
Special forces as well as remote and airborne surveillance assets should provide for presence in those spaces between established areas to provide RISTA support to the main forces dug in and hunkered down behind population centers busy with the rebuilding of the systems, habitations and institutions of life that shall serve to further define the Afghan nation away from everything that the Afghan nation is not and should never be - according to their own vision of themselves as a people.
The rights of civilians in a battlefield environment, as part of the strategic initiative, must be communicated, clearly and decisively, and the reality of this commitment recognized and enforced by the military as well as the civil government.
A diplomatic channel must be made available to the Taliban with prior common understanding of the necessity, the practicality and the sheer humanity of establishing a process wherein the framework of a workable peace may become available to all parties concerned.
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In the Middle East, my darlingest, the election of the new Israeli PM is not a step back but a step forward in the peace process.
I understand his own sense of caution is ruled by his love for his nation and not because of anything else but this and so therefore, any motion forward in terms of the peace process in this new context would truly be something that is gained not because attaining the peace is something easy but because it is difficult and therefore better reflects the reality of our hope as something worth having and striving for, my love.
You know, this war can not last forever but a peace that is rushed into will be just as transient. And in this way, Yoni's brother's own sense of caution will serve the good of all sides to the one peace knowing that he, too, like his brother must be willing in his heart to give everything for his people, for his nation. (I do apologize if it seems forward for me to say such things but these things are things that must be said.)
Therefore, any peace in this context (it has been previously maintained) must be real for the good and the common good of all parties concerned.
The region itself as an area whole must be looked into to obtain a strategic view of the peace for both modern Israel (of our elder Israel) and for our unborn Palestine - both of whom have their belongings to each other in our one family of nations. Modern Israel can not preserve her native hope apart from a two-state solution and the hope of the world will not be served if the peace in the Middle East is not genuine.
Much things rely on this, my love, that Jerusalem remain undivided and that peace become a reality in this troubled region as this will do much to help extinguish the flames of conflict that rage in other parts of our inhabited earth; a one whole world suffering from the existential threat of war.
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I am spent, my love. I should like to park it for now, my darlingest dear. We shall continue hopefully with some lighter material tomorrow.
I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
20090418
Dear darlingest Annelies Marie,
On the End of Days
There are some people in our needful world, my love, consumed with so much worry about the end of things, who forget to even begin in themselves that necessary journey upon which the purpose of all these things in all of creation are intended by the timeless LORD of all time; that journey which all human beings and all human nations are in the course of our hope in exile time intrinsically called by a desire that runs from deep within, beckoning us to Itself like a shedding away of the darkness.
This world will end, my love - that is a scientific fact. This whole visible universe shall in time exhaust the very purpose for its being - but the business of life and the living of its reason to be, it shall continue - and continue in ways often profoundly mysterious even to the deepest eye of faith, but continue it will, my love, not because things have an end but because life's reason for being is an endless truth - for the glory of God is eternal.
So it is the business of beginnings that all human hope is intended and not the despair of things that are not given to it's virtue - indeed, no man nor angel knows the precise time of those things that are neither in themselves native to either our respective stations in the universal order of life nor to the individual will that is possessed by the intelligence that is seated from within each our being - for only God knows the precise hour of the Last Day.
It is the lack of this knowledge in each of us and in all of us that work to advance the greater sweep of those higher purposes of creation that all good things know to trust and fulfill.
Must this be a cause for despair?
Life is activity, my love - and this activity transcends the corruption that rots away at the evil in evil things. Hope is an inherently human virtue, therefore, let us now begin to live by its works - knowing enough of what precious promise there is within each individual human being to begin to see what great potential for good we each possess as individual human persons but above all as each individual human nations - beyond our differences and despite any difficulties - of the one family of the nations of Mankind.
Not by tyranny of War nor the acceptance of the will of war can we ever begin to appreciate all of this for the desire of War are not these things.
If we love what we do, even as imperfect human beings, this love shall seek to perfectly define us and if we allow for this love to perfectly define us, we shall begin to mature in time and within the order of God's grace in the age of our virtues to even approach the true promise of the creatures that we were intended by God right from the very beginning, and in eternity become perfected as proper* human beings - to work the works of God with the angels of God forever.
What is a proper human being? To answer this, my love, I rewrote the whole paragraph:
If we love what we do as imperfect human beings, even the act of loving itself, this love shall seek to perfectly define us and if we allow for this love to perfectly define us, we shall begin to mature in time and within the order of God's grace in the age of our virtues to even approach the true promise of the creatures that we were intended by God right from the very beginning, and in eternity become perfected in our shared humanity as human beings, in complete possession of ourselves - and of our names - and being given to our timeless and ageless belongings to each other - from always to always - as ascended nations - to work the works of God with the angels of God forever.
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I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
On the End of Days
There are some people in our needful world, my love, consumed with so much worry about the end of things, who forget to even begin in themselves that necessary journey upon which the purpose of all these things in all of creation are intended by the timeless LORD of all time; that journey which all human beings and all human nations are in the course of our hope in exile time intrinsically called by a desire that runs from deep within, beckoning us to Itself like a shedding away of the darkness.
This world will end, my love - that is a scientific fact. This whole visible universe shall in time exhaust the very purpose for its being - but the business of life and the living of its reason to be, it shall continue - and continue in ways often profoundly mysterious even to the deepest eye of faith, but continue it will, my love, not because things have an end but because life's reason for being is an endless truth - for the glory of God is eternal.
So it is the business of beginnings that all human hope is intended and not the despair of things that are not given to it's virtue - indeed, no man nor angel knows the precise time of those things that are neither in themselves native to either our respective stations in the universal order of life nor to the individual will that is possessed by the intelligence that is seated from within each our being - for only God knows the precise hour of the Last Day.
It is the lack of this knowledge in each of us and in all of us that work to advance the greater sweep of those higher purposes of creation that all good things know to trust and fulfill.
Must this be a cause for despair?
Life is activity, my love - and this activity transcends the corruption that rots away at the evil in evil things. Hope is an inherently human virtue, therefore, let us now begin to live by its works - knowing enough of what precious promise there is within each individual human being to begin to see what great potential for good we each possess as individual human persons but above all as each individual human nations - beyond our differences and despite any difficulties - of the one family of the nations of Mankind.
Not by tyranny of War nor the acceptance of the will of war can we ever begin to appreciate all of this for the desire of War are not these things.
If we love what we do, even as imperfect human beings, this love shall seek to perfectly define us and if we allow for this love to perfectly define us, we shall begin to mature in time and within the order of God's grace in the age of our virtues to even approach the true promise of the creatures that we were intended by God right from the very beginning, and in eternity become perfected as proper* human beings - to work the works of God with the angels of God forever.
What is a proper human being? To answer this, my love, I rewrote the whole paragraph:
If we love what we do as imperfect human beings, even the act of loving itself, this love shall seek to perfectly define us and if we allow for this love to perfectly define us, we shall begin to mature in time and within the order of God's grace in the age of our virtues to even approach the true promise of the creatures that we were intended by God right from the very beginning, and in eternity become perfected in our shared humanity as human beings, in complete possession of ourselves - and of our names - and being given to our timeless and ageless belongings to each other - from always to always - as ascended nations - to work the works of God with the angels of God forever.
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I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
Sunday, March 15, 2009
20090315
Dear darlingest Miyang Marie,
I heard the voice of our Lady during a pause in Holy Mass last night confirming to my heart that you are her daughter and that the reason for our friendship is very special.
First of all, our LORD knows and you as well know in your own heart how I recognize and respect your own Jewishness, my dear darlingest Annelies Marie, and would have that your own sacred remembrances in this world be left as they are for I know that they are a good to this world. But as God would have me move on in my own time with you always in my heart, our LORD decided to reveal you to me as you are Now, in your ageless, timeless form, my love, which is something that I implicitly know that I shall never completely understand and therefore, hold in sacred mystery just as I would hold all other things of the faith in the same context. I know for a fact in my heart that the world that is to come is quite different from the world that is in exile time and that we are not yet in the world that is to come simply because we are All (and All meaning all persons of good will who stand in the eternal favor of God) still here, are we not? For the world that is to come is one that is and must be shared and won as a common destiny with All people of good will as ascended nations in and with God, perfected in our humanity for and with each another. For our perfect LORD shall not condescend again and create two distinct forms of absolute happiness to accommodate the imperfections of Mankind; this condescension of God that brought about the light of peace to a Mankind fallen into darkness is made manifest in its splendor in the Incarnate Word and is the reason why the Gospel of Jesus Christ is the Good News - because it is precisely this condescension of the one Divine, something that is once and final - lest the Wisdom of God be called into question (which is impossible), that gave each person in the All of our humanity hope as virtue and a reason to live for lasting happiness and equality in life in a world where truth is fleeting and dying is the most common form of equality.
But I also know that due to the mysterious realities of faith as virtue and its particular effects on the human experience of the one Divine Who is the one triune God of all perfection that I can not hope to directly entrust this sacred mystery to any human heart but is one of those things that I must entirely leave with perfect and joyful abandon to the Heart of my one LORD in communion with other hearts of good will who are at peace with God and with each other. It is the hope that I have found in the constant reality of God that is and must be shared and expressed with other people of faith and good will.
Therefore, my loveliest love, we are come to the question of true religion. True religion for me is very important for I can not be indifferent to my own Roman Catholic faith. I can not say that all religions are equal for I know of only one, my own. I can not say that another's faith with the one Divine is false for I should never tempt the LORD and claim to walk within those sacred places in the souls of Mankind where only God may tread with each of us. I can only see the hope that is produced in the venerable virtues that a true and honorable religion brings into the life of this or that individual human being and consequently the many forms of goodness that result from this uniquely particular and universally mysterious liberation of the one self from the death and the cycles of suffering that besiege all of our humanity which consequently always brings an increase of peace to the society of the nations of Mankind.
How therefore can we define true religion, my love, in our own experience together in this particular and most peculiar life of mine? True religion is the realization of God in the person of the one self alone - an imperfect creature, wretched and unworthy, seeking to love and obey his or her most glorious and infinitely perfect Creator: that is true religion. It does not seek to judge other faiths but its own. It sees faith by the fruits produced in them and judges the fruits not the faith itself. For faith can not exist without the action of God and no amount of lies can undo what God seeks to accomplish in time as well as in eternity. It seeks to willingly and joyfully share its own new found sense of hope in God with others in God and just the same reserves hope for all human beings. It does all things out of a Love that is possessed and so does not seek to possess all things nor confess its worship of any other thing but the God it seeks to singularly know, love and serve.
Therefore, even as Catholic Laity in our own states of life, we must awaken to the fact that we each contain within our Covenant trust, a sacred obligation, within our own sense of vocation in and with our Mother Church, to make sure that each and every Roman Catholic remain true to the faith that we throughout the ages constantly confess with and to each other and share in common with all of blessed Christendom, a Christian duty to share with the rest of the world our new found sense of hope through particular witness of our most loving Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, in thought, word and most importantly, act.
The distinction between faith and hope when blurred and confused make indistinct also the line between God and religion. God can exist without religion. In fact, God can exist without Mankind or angels - period. Religion can not exist without God nor can creatures continue to be without the One that IS.
Therefore, where it comes to faith, neither guile nor coercion, nor flattery, nor willfulness can prevent what God particularly intends which is why to tamper with faith, most especially the faith of other people, is to tempt the LORD. Salvation by conquest is a social sin which at a time, times and half-a-time, must be left to the past that we intend to forever leave behind us today.
But let us to good hope rally together in good faith and good will, even as nations dreaming together of a better world. For it is indeed, a favorable season to build - a difficult season, yes, but nothing is easy that is worthwhile and should the difficulty of the task ahead ever assail us with thoughts of despair, we are to recall again and again, that this labor is no longer a labor of tears, as in war, but is one done out of a common hope of a common destiny for all Mankind, as in peace; our God's own peace and for us Christians, the peace of Jesus Christ.
Therefore, my darlingest Annelies Marie, I should like to say, your remembrance on this world shall remain a good for Mankind and a joy for your heart at Home but I should like to increase that joy with this holy friendship of ours and that is exactly why Mama Mary spoke to me last night those words of reassurance and guidance; you are her daughter and my friend forever and this is no random act. For there is a malice that is in motion in our world at present and it shall seek to test us but those who shall prevail shall prevail as the stars prevail at night, leading our world to a better, brighter, kinder tomorrow.
The numberless stars, my love, they are because each one is together with others for no one star is enough to lead the way ahead and no one star is alike yet all shine with the freedom of the sons and daughters of God (in spirit and in truth and not by corporal form or physical appearance) for neither is the firmament divided nor the one Light absent in the reflection of All. I am only because of you and All of you, my loveliest love, and We are only because our LORD IS and that is that. I am nobody without my God and my friends - which is why we are such a unit, my darlingest dear, Yang-yang Marie, a binary system - appearing as one star to the naked eye but upon closer inspection is a system of two distinct and independent wholes. Incidentally, you are a Gemini (so you must have a twin, right?) and incidentally, your birthday is the Independence Day of my own endeavor of Country, the Philippines. This shall now also be the day in every month and the anniversary of every year, my loveliest love, that I shall seek to challenge the lie of drug addiction that sought to take whole our friendship by salutary reflections and prayers that specifically target its deception in my life and the life of many others: June 12.
I am nothing without my friends, seen as well as unseen. I know this for a fact. But All is lost without the God of All. Therefore, We must be completely truthful to our selves, fiercely loyal to our friends and perfectly faithful to our God and to our peace with each other in God for in that way, we shall be as the stars and soon, this night shall be as no more - it is written. Lest we forget, lest we forget.
I know that many people shall face difficulty in this year and no one can be exactly certain about what the years ahead of us may hold and so this is all the more reason why we must endeavor to be what we need to become for not only are the solutions to the problems we face today found in and along the path of peace that each pilgrim nation of Mankind must take to return from exile, the end of our journey as a whole, both as individual human beings as well as individual human nations, also awaits us there - at the gathering, at the Last Day - a one common destiny for the one family of humanity and an eternal Home for all the nations of Mankind. Who shall protect this pilgrim path of our nations returning Home from exile time but the sheltering wings of the peace, which is our own belongings to each other as human beings and born of our love of God and fidelity to our own endeavors of Country?
Whenever I say peace at Holy Mass, I mean it to say, "yes, O Beautiful Mother Church, I shall be to you as your hope." And AMEN by sacramental grace of God at our commissioning at the end of every Holy Mass, "I am this hope - for the good of the Church and for the good of all persons of good will, most especially our Lord's poor." And never again shall I offer my "peace" without meaning it like this, exactly, joyfully and completely and always, implicitly or explicitly, alone or with others, in the Name of Jesus Christ upon Whose Gospel behest I carry it out.
There is also a reason why Mama Mary reminded me of our friendship, my love, a reason that I shall keep to myself for now for the time is not yet right.
I have to go for now, my loveliest love.
I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
P.S.
How do you explain violence to children? I believe there are no easy answers to this, my love. Even adults find it very hard to cope with violence - most especially those ones that are tainted with malice. Why must we be asking this question? Because of shooting sprees - most especially in schools - and the needs of our chaplains to cope with this particular form of willful deviation from the established ways of truth and human morality. We shall have to begin meditating on this particular topic, my love.
How did the voice of our Lady sound to me - I can sum it up in three words: melodious, royal and dignified. My first reaction was to doubt it with all my mind until it made itself distinct from my own thoughts. Its not like any female voice I have heard before. It penetrated me with its gentle rhythm, it was royal but not aloof and the substance of its message left an indelible impression upon my heart. It was not sure if I was hearing with my mind or with my heart or with my ear, suffice to say, I heard and I understood what I heard. It is different from the impressions I get of "winged truth" in prayer. This one I had to challenge because of my predisposition to auditory hallucinations. Also, I did not even have to ask who it was, like I knew instantly who it is.
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I heard the voice of our Lady during a pause in Holy Mass last night confirming to my heart that you are her daughter and that the reason for our friendship is very special.
First of all, our LORD knows and you as well know in your own heart how I recognize and respect your own Jewishness, my dear darlingest Annelies Marie, and would have that your own sacred remembrances in this world be left as they are for I know that they are a good to this world. But as God would have me move on in my own time with you always in my heart, our LORD decided to reveal you to me as you are Now, in your ageless, timeless form, my love, which is something that I implicitly know that I shall never completely understand and therefore, hold in sacred mystery just as I would hold all other things of the faith in the same context. I know for a fact in my heart that the world that is to come is quite different from the world that is in exile time and that we are not yet in the world that is to come simply because we are All (and All meaning all persons of good will who stand in the eternal favor of God) still here, are we not? For the world that is to come is one that is and must be shared and won as a common destiny with All people of good will as ascended nations in and with God, perfected in our humanity for and with each another. For our perfect LORD shall not condescend again and create two distinct forms of absolute happiness to accommodate the imperfections of Mankind; this condescension of God that brought about the light of peace to a Mankind fallen into darkness is made manifest in its splendor in the Incarnate Word and is the reason why the Gospel of Jesus Christ is the Good News - because it is precisely this condescension of the one Divine, something that is once and final - lest the Wisdom of God be called into question (which is impossible), that gave each person in the All of our humanity hope as virtue and a reason to live for lasting happiness and equality in life in a world where truth is fleeting and dying is the most common form of equality.
But I also know that due to the mysterious realities of faith as virtue and its particular effects on the human experience of the one Divine Who is the one triune God of all perfection that I can not hope to directly entrust this sacred mystery to any human heart but is one of those things that I must entirely leave with perfect and joyful abandon to the Heart of my one LORD in communion with other hearts of good will who are at peace with God and with each other. It is the hope that I have found in the constant reality of God that is and must be shared and expressed with other people of faith and good will.
Therefore, my loveliest love, we are come to the question of true religion. True religion for me is very important for I can not be indifferent to my own Roman Catholic faith. I can not say that all religions are equal for I know of only one, my own. I can not say that another's faith with the one Divine is false for I should never tempt the LORD and claim to walk within those sacred places in the souls of Mankind where only God may tread with each of us. I can only see the hope that is produced in the venerable virtues that a true and honorable religion brings into the life of this or that individual human being and consequently the many forms of goodness that result from this uniquely particular and universally mysterious liberation of the one self from the death and the cycles of suffering that besiege all of our humanity which consequently always brings an increase of peace to the society of the nations of Mankind.
How therefore can we define true religion, my love, in our own experience together in this particular and most peculiar life of mine? True religion is the realization of God in the person of the one self alone - an imperfect creature, wretched and unworthy, seeking to love and obey his or her most glorious and infinitely perfect Creator: that is true religion. It does not seek to judge other faiths but its own. It sees faith by the fruits produced in them and judges the fruits not the faith itself. For faith can not exist without the action of God and no amount of lies can undo what God seeks to accomplish in time as well as in eternity. It seeks to willingly and joyfully share its own new found sense of hope in God with others in God and just the same reserves hope for all human beings. It does all things out of a Love that is possessed and so does not seek to possess all things nor confess its worship of any other thing but the God it seeks to singularly know, love and serve.
Therefore, even as Catholic Laity in our own states of life, we must awaken to the fact that we each contain within our Covenant trust, a sacred obligation, within our own sense of vocation in and with our Mother Church, to make sure that each and every Roman Catholic remain true to the faith that we throughout the ages constantly confess with and to each other and share in common with all of blessed Christendom, a Christian duty to share with the rest of the world our new found sense of hope through particular witness of our most loving Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, in thought, word and most importantly, act.
The distinction between faith and hope when blurred and confused make indistinct also the line between God and religion. God can exist without religion. In fact, God can exist without Mankind or angels - period. Religion can not exist without God nor can creatures continue to be without the One that IS.
Therefore, where it comes to faith, neither guile nor coercion, nor flattery, nor willfulness can prevent what God particularly intends which is why to tamper with faith, most especially the faith of other people, is to tempt the LORD. Salvation by conquest is a social sin which at a time, times and half-a-time, must be left to the past that we intend to forever leave behind us today.
But let us to good hope rally together in good faith and good will, even as nations dreaming together of a better world. For it is indeed, a favorable season to build - a difficult season, yes, but nothing is easy that is worthwhile and should the difficulty of the task ahead ever assail us with thoughts of despair, we are to recall again and again, that this labor is no longer a labor of tears, as in war, but is one done out of a common hope of a common destiny for all Mankind, as in peace; our God's own peace and for us Christians, the peace of Jesus Christ.
Therefore, my darlingest Annelies Marie, I should like to say, your remembrance on this world shall remain a good for Mankind and a joy for your heart at Home but I should like to increase that joy with this holy friendship of ours and that is exactly why Mama Mary spoke to me last night those words of reassurance and guidance; you are her daughter and my friend forever and this is no random act. For there is a malice that is in motion in our world at present and it shall seek to test us but those who shall prevail shall prevail as the stars prevail at night, leading our world to a better, brighter, kinder tomorrow.
The numberless stars, my love, they are because each one is together with others for no one star is enough to lead the way ahead and no one star is alike yet all shine with the freedom of the sons and daughters of God (in spirit and in truth and not by corporal form or physical appearance) for neither is the firmament divided nor the one Light absent in the reflection of All. I am only because of you and All of you, my loveliest love, and We are only because our LORD IS and that is that. I am nobody without my God and my friends - which is why we are such a unit, my darlingest dear, Yang-yang Marie, a binary system - appearing as one star to the naked eye but upon closer inspection is a system of two distinct and independent wholes. Incidentally, you are a Gemini (so you must have a twin, right?) and incidentally, your birthday is the Independence Day of my own endeavor of Country, the Philippines. This shall now also be the day in every month and the anniversary of every year, my loveliest love, that I shall seek to challenge the lie of drug addiction that sought to take whole our friendship by salutary reflections and prayers that specifically target its deception in my life and the life of many others: June 12.
I am nothing without my friends, seen as well as unseen. I know this for a fact. But All is lost without the God of All. Therefore, We must be completely truthful to our selves, fiercely loyal to our friends and perfectly faithful to our God and to our peace with each other in God for in that way, we shall be as the stars and soon, this night shall be as no more - it is written. Lest we forget, lest we forget.
I know that many people shall face difficulty in this year and no one can be exactly certain about what the years ahead of us may hold and so this is all the more reason why we must endeavor to be what we need to become for not only are the solutions to the problems we face today found in and along the path of peace that each pilgrim nation of Mankind must take to return from exile, the end of our journey as a whole, both as individual human beings as well as individual human nations, also awaits us there - at the gathering, at the Last Day - a one common destiny for the one family of humanity and an eternal Home for all the nations of Mankind. Who shall protect this pilgrim path of our nations returning Home from exile time but the sheltering wings of the peace, which is our own belongings to each other as human beings and born of our love of God and fidelity to our own endeavors of Country?
Whenever I say peace at Holy Mass, I mean it to say, "yes, O Beautiful Mother Church, I shall be to you as your hope." And AMEN by sacramental grace of God at our commissioning at the end of every Holy Mass, "I am this hope - for the good of the Church and for the good of all persons of good will, most especially our Lord's poor." And never again shall I offer my "peace" without meaning it like this, exactly, joyfully and completely and always, implicitly or explicitly, alone or with others, in the Name of Jesus Christ upon Whose Gospel behest I carry it out.
There is also a reason why Mama Mary reminded me of our friendship, my love, a reason that I shall keep to myself for now for the time is not yet right.
I have to go for now, my loveliest love.
I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
P.S.
How do you explain violence to children? I believe there are no easy answers to this, my love. Even adults find it very hard to cope with violence - most especially those ones that are tainted with malice. Why must we be asking this question? Because of shooting sprees - most especially in schools - and the needs of our chaplains to cope with this particular form of willful deviation from the established ways of truth and human morality. We shall have to begin meditating on this particular topic, my love.
How did the voice of our Lady sound to me - I can sum it up in three words: melodious, royal and dignified. My first reaction was to doubt it with all my mind until it made itself distinct from my own thoughts. Its not like any female voice I have heard before. It penetrated me with its gentle rhythm, it was royal but not aloof and the substance of its message left an indelible impression upon my heart. It was not sure if I was hearing with my mind or with my heart or with my ear, suffice to say, I heard and I understood what I heard. It is different from the impressions I get of "winged truth" in prayer. This one I had to challenge because of my predisposition to auditory hallucinations. Also, I did not even have to ask who it was, like I knew instantly who it is.
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Thursday, March 5, 2009
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Dear darlingest Annelies Marie,
Prayer, my love, which is the constant lifting up of one's heart-mind to God - love longing for Itself - becomes complete in the self by the bearing of the fruits of the Holy Spirit of God. It is not enough that we pray, for prayer can never be just about thoughts and words but must burst out from the loving within the soul into the reality of the self and others - for the good of all things.
This is where much of my frustrations are found for I have many, many faults, my love. Prayer is a tool of repentance and therefore, must in its own time lead us to bear the fruits of penance. But who am I to tell the one Daystar of my little life how It should shine or demand from Its light where it should lend its quickening illumination. For I am in the darkness, need itself.
I have learned to trust in the LORD - despite of myself, out of necessity, amidst these battles I must fight against the demons that seek to overthrow the Kingdom inside of myself, and not to let my hope in God and in others through God be pinned down by needless scruples.
I am familiar with spiritual pain (and so I can completely relate with Big S., Sarah Silverman) and the angst that all repentant sinners experience which in itself present a constant temptation to curse at the Providence of God but it shall take a lot, and I mean a whole lot of undoing within my heart for me to even begin to think about setting my own will against the one changeless will of the one Beautiful, the one triune Perfection and true God of my heart. I am often beset by whispering accusations and raging uncertainties about many things, most especially when I fall into sin, but these things shall not prevent me from picking myself up and continuing on my way nor shall these things cause the love that has begun to live in my soul of others and of my LORD to turn to ashes from within.
To God alone belong the victory. Therefore, where it concerns God's creatures, seen and unseen, it is when one's will has given up the fight and have allowed evil to spread its lie in the soul shall the Kingdom from within fall and the being of that person, human or angelic, turn to ashes from within.
This gives me hope, my love, and keeps my feet on the ground as a human being. Angels are defined by the swiftness and the accuracy of their flight, but we human beings are defined by our will to fly - for none of us are born with angel wings, we must earn them by our willingness to rise above adversity. And we can not rise above adversity if at first we do not begin with our feet planted firmly on the ground of tribulations.
We are each called to perfection but it is not through the way of perfection that our human feet are called by our LORD to Himself but through another road, a mountain path, a way of loving sacrifice for we shall indeed conquer together in Him but by way of repentance, my love - the royal road of the Cross.
I've been falling asleep during my training classes these past several nights and its embarrassing. Work is going great, my love - I love my workmates and my trainers. The company culture where I work is good as well. I work in the call center industry, as you know, my darlingest and I am blessed by a job through this industry which is an industry that is above all things, service oriented.
You know, I've been keenly observing this particular industry for a time now and should also like to post something about it because it would be a good thing indeed to help demystify some of the misconceptions I perceive people in America and maybe also in Europe seem to be prone to have about this industry stealing their jobs and also at the same time to disseminate to my own Filipino compatriots a common understanding of those things that work to humanize our clients, things that make them more than just mere voices, disembodied and distant, but human beings, who like ourselves desire to dwell near to the warmth of all human hearts and needy like all of Mankind.
Gosh, this Internet cafe is full of screaming, noisy high schoolers right now. The rowdyruff boys are in Townsville so it seems. So I got to go for now, my love.
I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
Prayer, my love, which is the constant lifting up of one's heart-mind to God - love longing for Itself - becomes complete in the self by the bearing of the fruits of the Holy Spirit of God. It is not enough that we pray, for prayer can never be just about thoughts and words but must burst out from the loving within the soul into the reality of the self and others - for the good of all things.
This is where much of my frustrations are found for I have many, many faults, my love. Prayer is a tool of repentance and therefore, must in its own time lead us to bear the fruits of penance. But who am I to tell the one Daystar of my little life how It should shine or demand from Its light where it should lend its quickening illumination. For I am in the darkness, need itself.
I have learned to trust in the LORD - despite of myself, out of necessity, amidst these battles I must fight against the demons that seek to overthrow the Kingdom inside of myself, and not to let my hope in God and in others through God be pinned down by needless scruples.
I am familiar with spiritual pain (and so I can completely relate with Big S., Sarah Silverman) and the angst that all repentant sinners experience which in itself present a constant temptation to curse at the Providence of God but it shall take a lot, and I mean a whole lot of undoing within my heart for me to even begin to think about setting my own will against the one changeless will of the one Beautiful, the one triune Perfection and true God of my heart. I am often beset by whispering accusations and raging uncertainties about many things, most especially when I fall into sin, but these things shall not prevent me from picking myself up and continuing on my way nor shall these things cause the love that has begun to live in my soul of others and of my LORD to turn to ashes from within.
To God alone belong the victory. Therefore, where it concerns God's creatures, seen and unseen, it is when one's will has given up the fight and have allowed evil to spread its lie in the soul shall the Kingdom from within fall and the being of that person, human or angelic, turn to ashes from within.
This gives me hope, my love, and keeps my feet on the ground as a human being. Angels are defined by the swiftness and the accuracy of their flight, but we human beings are defined by our will to fly - for none of us are born with angel wings, we must earn them by our willingness to rise above adversity. And we can not rise above adversity if at first we do not begin with our feet planted firmly on the ground of tribulations.
We are each called to perfection but it is not through the way of perfection that our human feet are called by our LORD to Himself but through another road, a mountain path, a way of loving sacrifice for we shall indeed conquer together in Him but by way of repentance, my love - the royal road of the Cross.
I've been falling asleep during my training classes these past several nights and its embarrassing. Work is going great, my love - I love my workmates and my trainers. The company culture where I work is good as well. I work in the call center industry, as you know, my darlingest and I am blessed by a job through this industry which is an industry that is above all things, service oriented.
You know, I've been keenly observing this particular industry for a time now and should also like to post something about it because it would be a good thing indeed to help demystify some of the misconceptions I perceive people in America and maybe also in Europe seem to be prone to have about this industry stealing their jobs and also at the same time to disseminate to my own Filipino compatriots a common understanding of those things that work to humanize our clients, things that make them more than just mere voices, disembodied and distant, but human beings, who like ourselves desire to dwell near to the warmth of all human hearts and needy like all of Mankind.
Gosh, this Internet cafe is full of screaming, noisy high schoolers right now. The rowdyruff boys are in Townsville so it seems. So I got to go for now, my love.
I love you.
Always to always,
Pusing
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